Reflecting

Funny how this time of the year so many people are doing what I am today.

Reflecting.

Looking at what we have allowed life to throw at us, give us, take away from us.
Again I say allow life to do.
It's all in our attitude, so they say.

This is a new year.
So a new attitude needs to apply.

ummmmmmm, yeah!
I'll be the first to agree, I need an attitude adjustment.
I am everyday praying for an adjustment so I can handle what is put in front of me to deal with.

It gets real hard sometimes, reflecting over the past year.

Conceding to ending my marriage.

A stern kick in the butt with possible termination from a company mistake I made in the privacy of my own home, off the clock, in dealing with a friend of 6 yrs who admitted her mistakes to me.
(I wouldn't rat her out, I forced her to turn herself in after consulting w/a pastor)
found out can't get counsel from someone you can trust not to say anything.

Another stern kick in the butt with possible termination from a company mistake I made off the clock giving a piece of advice stating they needed to use their own discretion in the matter. They made the mistake, I got wrote up. Go Figure.

It's hard also because I find myself getting closer to one of my daughters and feeling a want and need to be even closer from both sides but so far away in miles.

I am going to focus on a new foot, new attitude at work so I can make a move with a job to a closer proximity of family.
Got to get busy on the knees for help from above.

I know there is a better plan for me on this earth in this lifetime.

I am thankful over the past year for all the different sites that have so many words of wisdom to share.
I do try to absorb some of this wisdom.
Even though, I don't always leave marks behind, I am visiting so many through others, I can't thank you all enough for the smiles you have put on my face and yes, even the tears, the convictions that I have had on some of my own stupidity thru some other statements.
I don't take offense, I just contemplate...lol..maybe even delete.
I so wish sometimes there was a delete button for incidents in our lives.
Ooops, but we do, don't we, thru the Lord.
I just have to remember, the past is the past.
It's over.

yeah, okay
bring it on
2008

Actually, I am kind of excited about what is ahead from here.

Actually right now, all I want is to feel better,
been real yucky for about a week.

Got to go start a new year off at work,now.
did someone call this a holiday?