Just a Simple Statement

Hiddy Ho all. Happy New Year.

Not sure what is so "happy". I have been so yucky the past week. Down with a serious bout of bronchitis.

Doesn't feel real good w/having emphysema from smoking for so many years. Thank God He took the desire away from me 5 yrs ago. Don't know where I'd be right now if I hadn't quit.

This is the first time I have gotten bronchitis since I quit smoking, so I am thankful for that. It doesn't make the chest pain go away any easier tho, or make it any easier to breathe in an already hard to breathe situation.

I have been trying to do my job as well, during this.
Been Tough.

Last weekend doing the split shift that has been scheduled for me, I did 3 days of supposed 11 hr shifts...ended up 39 hrs in 3 days. I was wore out. but then after a day off, I do have to admit, I was starting to feel better.

Then wham..smack..what you talking about, feeling better..got 2 days off and spent them in bed sweating out what ever this was except for a mandatory meeting we had that lasted 2 1/2 hrs. Then here we go again, my split shift again. Really, really short staffed . Came to work, can't talk, can't breathe, and there were 2 people doing a 6 person task for the whole show. My heart dropped, knowing I was going to have to be on the floor all day feeling bad, cause it was just one poor stressed out guy and me to get the main job done and one person for the officer's dining room.

I really felt bad for him cause he worries too much over the small stuff and does more than he has to do anyhow in some situations and not enough in others. If he would only learn to just stop thinking on ways to do things and just do what has to be done it goes easier. Let's get on with the routine stuff, stop trying to change stuff.

Poor guy was running around in circles getting nowhere. Told him to remember the old days, we did just fine when we knew that there was nothing else to do but do it.

The day did not go well but it got done..been there done it tooooo many times with just one other person and we did fine. Not sure what was happening that day.

Now we are moving into a New Year..would love to see it as a new year.

Appropriate with a new leader and a new asst. leader.

Teach me something new, learning new stuff as the days go on make me optomistic in some new ventures that may come available. In any case, it can do nothing but to improve my outlook for the new year on the horizon.

I am so hoping that some of the people I mingle with will open their eyes to what lays ahead for them. It could be so nice for all to just do what needs to be done and stop fighting the system. There are so many that have great potential if they would only get over the.."we haven't done it that way" syndrome. You can't move on to a better situation if you won't open your eyes and ears and accept that maybe there is a better solution by following directives that are given instead of shutting down everytime someone says "we need to do it this way".

When you put out a negative, you are not open to receive a positive.

It would be so great to say to someone, this is how so and so would like for us to do this and have it received as, yeah, ok, let's try this and see how it works, instead of a pair of eyes rolling into the back of the head and a negative remark. What kills me are the remarks when you walk away to fellow workers and of all the wrong situations, to the people we are overseeing, which is a direct break of policy, and people think you are stupid enough not hear what is said or that you are not aware of what is going on around you.

I am so working hard on not being rude like some people are to me. They comment on me but they really need to look in the mirror once in awhile.

I try very hard not to let people know how callous, offending, and hurtful they are in their remarks to and about me, but they sure don't hesitate to be vocal about my giving a directive that I am told to give. Not once have I ever dogged anyone. but they sure dog me. I don't gossip about the others. I don't gripe to management about the others. There are a couple of really sweet ladies that I have tried to make management aware of, so things could possibly improve for them. I have been told by management that the staff doesn't like me. Sure they don't, when I keep busting them on stuff they are not supposed to be doing or are letting things be done the wrong way. Usually the one's who don't do what they are supposed to will be the ones to gripe the most, anyhow. But then you got some if they are not talking about someone, they don't know how to act. I sit and listen and watch how others are being talked bad about behind their backs and then watch the same people go up to the people they talked bad about and talk bad about the people they were just talking to. I hear lies being told. I can watch someone do something and turn around and say they didn't do it. This is staff, now. I don't play that game. I have never seen the sense in it.There is a better way folks, I promise.

I do not go out on that floor anymore unless really I have to or I am told to. If I see where people are not paying attention to what the people around them are doing,or they aren't doing what directive was given, my first instinct is to go stop it or correct it so people won't get in a fix for it, if it is staff and if it is who we are supervising, I try to stop a wrong situation from proceeding. I am told that I have to let them go....let them hang themselves..stop saving them, they don't see me saving their butts, they see it as interference in doing things their way. I am made sometimes to just sit or stand there and watch with the new guy, so it can be observed who is doing their job correctly (the company way) and who is not. In the tower, we can see alot more than people realize. I'm learning. It's making sense. Everyone has been told, as he has said he is going to enforce policy so it's time to start following policy and procedures. It's now time to let everybody do what they have been asked, if they don't ..oh well. As they say, people make their own choices in life..either you do what has to be done..or you find something else.

What it comes down to..no matter where you are employed there are rules and regulations..either you follow them so you can enjoy work or you don't. I really don't know anyone here that I work with, that is here for just the flip of it. I think everyone here is here because they need a job. It would so make a difference if they liked what they were doing or wanted a career. If they owned alittle piece of the company does make a difference sometimes. If they wanted the stock options and the 401K stuff available. They could have a great future for their family and themselves if they would just gave a damn.

I am trying desperately to make this new year a nicer one. I realize where I can go w/my job. I love my job. I know how nice life can be with a job like this.

LOL, I do have to say this, I am sorry. I worked prior to this company in a very very competitive atmosphere with sales. Trying to improve sales constantly. Trying to be a better merchandiser than your fellow salesman. My sales were on a constant increase. I can prove it. Never once in that atmosphere did I feel the tension that goes on in my current one. We got along great. In fact, I am still friends with quite a few of my ex-co-workers. But we were all stockholders, that made a difference. We cared about our costs and losses. Let's face it we cared about how the company was perceived also. I was proud to work for who I worked for and wanted them to be proud of me. I feel that way about this company. Hmm..I have always been a loyal to whomever I worked for, and almost always i worked with people in some form of management or ownership. I guess, that is why it is so hard for me to understand the mentality of some who have never had that opportunity. I can't ever honestly remember wanting in my 42 years of working with so many many types, so many different walks of life that I have experienced, have I ever considered leaving the job because of how my co-workers treated me as a person. I have considered it here, only recently. Doesn't mean I am going to do it. I have a leader who recognises the quality of me and is willing to show me a better way to get where I have the ability to go so duuuuhhhhhhhhhh..it only makes sense to improve my siuation rather than go backwards.....yeah? I wish others could see better for themselves.

I have not figured out why there is such a dog eat dog air about it all. I refuse to have someone else burst my bubble when I am doing what I am supposed to do. I will not let someone who doesn't give a damn about their job, interfere with mine.

Besides, I have God on my side. I know, I am where I am supposed to be. He put me here for a reason. I did not apply for this job. But it happened. I physically could not handle the job I had and I asked the Lord to put me in a better situation because I knew He had a better plan for me. It happened. I feel if I can make a difference for someone, anyone, then I am doing what I am supposed to do. The Lord has been there for me on this job too many times already in situations. He is still there with me, now. There has been too many times when I have gotten serious oppostion against me, and I prayed my little prayer for help in the workplace. It usually always includes;

Psa 138:7 When I walk into the thick of trouble, keep me alive in the angry turmoil. With one hand strike my foes, With your other hand save me.

He does save me. Thank you Lord. If anyone was to look back over the last 3 years anyone who purposely tried to hurt me in any way, they have kind of disappeared from my surroundings, be it work or anywhere really. I have witnesses to the fact, also, which is great. So I am very thankful for a stress free life on that accord. The most stress I have is the biting of my tongue and finding the appropriate words so as not to offend as others offend me.

God is Good

anytime I even start to think in a carnal way, feeling like I should belittle myself and show some kind of retribution in the direction of the people who offend me, the HS grabs me everytime and does one of those WWJD things to me and I say "delete delete" to the thoughts of my prior redneck days when I would just lay someout for their remarks and their actions, but my real redneck ways were usually seen in a real heathen enviroment like a bar. Like I said I have never worked in such a dog eat dog atmosphere. I have faith it will get better. It usually does. people come and people go and people stay. Hmmm.

I kind of like this new kid on the block and I will still be praying over the job and everyone there everyday, I will be including the kid too. After all he was trained by the only best sit-in manager we have had since the company took over. I sincerely miss the peaceful arena we had while Big O was here, I miss his words of Godly wisdom, his encouragement, his dry sense of humor, but I know it will all work out in the end to be what it is supposed to be. I miss ya,O