I am clay

For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. (2 Corinthians 4:6-7 NIV)



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In the same way God spoke light into the darkness at creation, today he speaks light into the darkness of our hearts. He fills us with the light of the Holy Spirit, allowing us to see the face of Christ with greater clarity as he transforms us into the likeness of Christ. We carry God’s glory, and it shines from us so all the world can see that our God is an awesome God.


The glory that shines from within us is not our own; it is God’s glory and his alone. Our brother, Paul, explains that we are jars of clay – fragile, chipped, imperfect – exactly as God designed us to be. In this way, others see the “all-surpassing power” of God through our weakened frames and shattered lives. We are monuments of God’s grace with an inscription written in God’s own hand: “Within this earthen container, the One True God is at work.”


Yet we try to put our own “shine” on our simple jars of clay. We maneuver and posture to make our jars look better. We decorate the outside with ecclesiastical “vain glories” that we call image, power, position, wealth. Quite simply, we try to make ourselves appear more than what we are, failing to grasp that God loves us just for who we are – his own creations.


When we try to make it look like we are the ones who shine, we inevitably reveal our “easily surpassable power.” Yet this gives us greater understanding that in our weakness, God is strong. His light shines through even greater; his strength is revealed when we acknowledge we are God’s jars of clay.


What does this mean?


· See your weaknesses as a gift – You are God’s jar of clay, designed exactly the way he intended. Your weaknesses are an opportunity for God’s light to shine even brighter from within you.


· Stop trying to make yourself look good – Just be who you are, a frail human designed by God to reveal his glory. Frankly, we could use a whole lot more authenticity in the church. If you’re hurt, say it; if you’re angry, resolve it; if you’re in love; show it; if you’ve made a mistake, confess it; if you’re in need, reveal it.


· Don’t make others think they have to appear good – Accept each other in love, just as Christ accepted you – a jar of clay with chips and cracks.


· Magnify the glory of God – Magnify the glory of God by simply being you and letting him shine through. Magnify the glory of God in others, instead of magnifying their weaknesses.

Dating game begins

Well,
I think it's time to open myself up for more options in where the direction of my life's desires may be headed.

I know I have the Lord's Hand on me in all I do, but I also have others who have to give their opinions.
In listening to some, I hate to admit this, but maybe, just maybe, they are right in saying I might need some helping hands in the form of a male partner.
Just because things did not work out w/my marriage doesn't mean that my whole life has to be lived in solitude.

So, thanks to the internet form of dating, I won't have to go to the smokey bar scene
that I know won't produce anthing but grief. (I am sooooo glad I don't do that any more.)

So, LOL, not that I am trying to be too particular
but I am requesting certain criteria that needs to be strict in responses.
Devised this intro...

figure it will help weed out the unnecessary reponses.

What ya think.
Put this into a on-line dating thingy.

Sorry if this is alittle long.
Just want to save you some time and trouble.
This is me and it will help in your decision.
I am a grandmother, great-grandmother, sister, aunt and daughter.
I love my family. I want to end up sometime, someday in the future closer to where my family is located and that is on the east coast.

My match would be a man who can stand strong in his beliefs. A man who is not afraid to commit and stand by that commitment no matter what the world may throw at us as a couple.
A man who can be honest about who their inner self really is, know what that self needs in life and go after it and take me with him.
A man who can be a big teddy bear yet protect me from the worlds hurts and disappointments.
Someone who put his strong arms around me and tell me "it's ok.
I gotcha, everything is gonna be all right, now" on a bad day.
I have always enjoyed the country living, having a garden to run out and grab something fresh for dinner.
Grow flowers, herbs, attract wildlife just so I can watch nature enjoy itself around me.
I have enjoyed horses in pleasure and in the business of racehorses.
I have always enjoyed riding( not had the opportunity to do so lately), pretended to be a cowgirl for the better part of my life. Just never had a cowboy on the same wave-length as me.
I have always wanted to be able to visit other areas of this world. I traveled for 30 years but it was always for business not pleasure.
Never had the opportunity to leave the states except for Canada.

Since leaving the horse industry, I have learned to live a much simpler life.
I have learned to enjoy what I need rather than the things I want.
It would be nice to have such another person in my world that can appreciate the simpler joys of what life has to offer rather than trying to keep up with the Jones's of this world.
I have learned to not control everything in my life.
There is a Greater being doing that very nicely, Thank You

That is also very big on my list of importance.
I need a man who can be my spiritual leader and walk strong in our beliefs.
Follow the path and purpose together that we are here for.
Help me to learn more spiritually and stay on the path of righteousness that is expected of us in order to be blessed with a long, good, happy life with each other.

I am an adult woman who does not smoke or drink and I prefer not to be around anyone who does indulge.
I have found I don't want or need all that to enjoy what life is all about.
I am a woman who once was overly self concious of my looks and tried to keep other people happy by trying to be someone I was not.
Now I am a mature woman with no games or baggage. With maturity comes a lot of changes.
I am not as fit as I used to be, I am not short or slender.
I am tall.
I have a few extra pounds, that does not take away from who my inner self is.
If you need all the outer beauty that most of you seem to be looking for, the high maintenance woman I choose not to be any longer, than I am not who you are looking for.
I have been around a few extremely handsome and beautiful people in my life, but their actions made them very ugly in the end.
I carry myself with respect.
I know who I am.
I am A woman that has a desire to just enjoy the remaining years of my life with someone who can be honest, faithful, loving and appreciate who I AM and who I CANNOT be.
By the way, I think it would be totally cool to learn how to drve a harley instead of sitting behind someone.
A granny riding a Harley down the highway, hair blowing in the wind. Yuppers, I could do that.
Some say I have had a radical re-birth because I am now standing strong with Jesus by my side and loving every minute of it.
I am still learning to walk the walk, I have found that you don't have to become a preacher or a teacher.
All you have to do is shine for Him and the rest comes easy.
Live and love by example.
All that entails is to be willing do the do's and don't do the don'ts.
Love me for who I am, a hard-working, happy, honest, straight-forward, dependable, compassionate, passionate, laid-back country girl at heart wanting the simpler life with same type of man.
Not into games, life is to short.
You never know what plans has been set forth for us.
I am looking for the doors that the Lord is opening for me.
I have decided to put my foot thru the door, just need someone to take my hand and help me the rest of the way.

Meet the Man With Blue Skin

When Paul Karason, now 57, developed a case of dermatitis 14 years ago, he decided to use a treatment called colloidal silver. The treatment, which is not considered safe or effective by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration, turned his skin blue, and he’s been living with it that way for over a decade.

Colloidal silver is made by extracting silver from metal. Manufacturers often describe the liquid as a cure-all, and Karason both drank the silver and rubbed it on his skin.

Because the changed happened so gradually, Karason says he didn’t even realize it was happening. That is, until an old friend came by and asked what he’d done.

It appears Karason may have suffered from argyria, an irreversible blue-gray discoloration of your skin, nails and gums that’s linked to colloidal silver. Other potential side effects of the liquid include:

Seizures and other neurological problems
Kidney damage
Indigestion
Headaches and fatigue
Skin irritation
Karason has not sought medical attention for his skin discoloration, and he says he’s still drinking smaller amounts of the silver.

The change in his skin color prompted him to move from Oregon to California, where he hopes to be accepted.

Still, Karason says, “I do tend to avoid public places as much as I can."

Knowing

This is an e-mail I received.
Had to share.

I Still Know Who She Is!

It was a busy morning, about 8:30 , when an
elderly gentleman in his
80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his
thumb. He said he was
in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 a.m.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat,
knowing it would be over
an hour before someone would to able to see him. I
saw him looking at
his watch and decided, since I was not busy with
another patient, I
would evaluate his wound.

On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of
the doctors, got the
needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress
his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he
had another doctor's
appointment this morning, as he was in such a
hurry. The gentleman told
me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to
eat breakfast with
his wife.

I inquired as to her health. He told me that she
had been there for a
while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's
Disease. As we talked, I
asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no
longer knew who he was, that she had not
recognized him in five years
now.

I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go
every morning, even
though she doesn't know who you are?'
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She
doesn't know me, but I
still know who she is.'

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose
bumps on my arm, and
thought, 'That is the kind of love I want in my
life.'

True love is neither physical, nor romantic.
True love is an acceptance of all that is, has
been, will be, and will
not be.

With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails,
sometimes there is one
that comes along that has an important message. I
had to share it with
you.

Oh, by the way, peace is seeing a sunset and
knowing who to thank.
The happiest people don't necessarily have the
best of everything; they
just make the best of everything they have.

I hope you share this with someone you care about.
I just did.
' Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but
how to dance in the
rain.'

Sweet

> Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
>
> One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to
> help drain the fluid from his lungs.
> His bed was next to the room ' s only window.
>
> The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
>
> The men talked for hours on end.
> They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their
> involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
>
>
> Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up,
> he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he
> could see outsi de the window.
>
> The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods
where
> his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and
color
> of the world outside.
>
>
> The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
> Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model
> boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color
and
> a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
>
>
> As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the
> man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine
this
> picturesque scene.
>
> One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing
> by.
>
>
> Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in
his
> mind ' s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with
> descriptive words.
>
>
> Days, weeks and months passed.
>
> One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only
> to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died
> peacefully in his sleep.
> She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body
> away.
>
> As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be
> moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and
> after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
>
>
> Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his
first
> look at the real world outside.
> He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
>
> It faced a blank wall.
>
> The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased
roommate
> who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
>
>
> The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the
> wall.
>
> She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'
>
>
>
> Epilogue:
>
> There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own
> situations.
>
> Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is
> doubled.
>
>
> If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that
money
> can ' t buy.
>
>
> 'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

Blue

I saw a blue man , yes blue, on TV with an awesome attitude about people and life in general.

Made me think about how small minded some people can be toward others.

LoL, After years of thinking I was fat when actually I was too skinny for my frame.
After years of having a man always in my life and others constantly approaching me, never once did I think it was because I was attractive.
I was.
In fact some people thought I was beautiful. Some people thought I had that aristocratic, so called classy look about me.(whatever that may be)
I can look back at some pictures and think WoW I really did look good, and I really was built like a "brick shithouse" as some also would say.

So stick with me, I getting to where I was originally going.

What is going on now.

People's attitudes about me now.

People look at me and see an old, overweight woman,
( I really am now).
Soon to be 59, yikes....closer to retirement age all the time,
that's old.
The men don't look at me the same way now.
Hmmmmmmm, wonder why??
Fat
Would that be a clue?
What if I was blue?
People would still look at me with question.
Why am I like that.
I must be something that I really am not.
First thing some people think is that I probably eat toooooo much.
Wrong.
I really don't.
In fact, with me, some or most of my problem is my thyroid is out of whack.
I just don't want to take all these stupid pills that I am supposed to take. They are very costly. If I was to get the kind that I am supposed to take it is over $100. Not in my budget.
I will try to do the proper intake of foods that help regulate.
Am I ever going to be a slender hot mamma again?
Nawwww
I know that with my personality, someone out there is gonna have to love me. I know it is in God's plan for me to have a happy life. I just have to learn to be patient.
I am currently working very hard to get where I need to be with my family and that is a test of patience also.
I will succeed. I will not be defeated on my goals.
If it doesn't work one way it will work another.

to be cont:

A memory

Just read a segment about someone sitting on a mountain ridge that brought back memories from so many years ago when I thought literally being at the top of a KY mountain ridge would give me the peace I was looking for at that time.
I was at the top of that ridge. You had to drive to the top of the mountain to reach my driveway and once you passed the driveway, it was all down hill from there.
Most times you had to walk the half mile or so to get to the cabin hidden amongst trees and clouds.
At a time that was kind of tumultous and seemingly dramatic at a time I felt a great need to get away, I had the opportunity to hide from the human race that I was familiar with, and rarely come out into a public that did not have a clue who I was. Twice a month I would start my descend of the mountain to get the absolute essentials to survive. Dry goods one day and then whatever the next day. All would fit into my backpack because I needed to have my arms free for my 2 year-old that was sharing this space with me at the time. I could not and did not expect this child to walk all the miles it was entailed to do this trek.
Halfway down the mountain, or up depending on which direction I might be traveling was a little country store that had everything you could ever imagine but hardly anything you really needed. All I needed in the wintry months was the pot bellied stove to warm my child and myself for a short break in the hike. Did I mention that the only way to travel the steep incline in the winter with a vehicle was to have 4 wheel drive and spikes on your tires. I had neither.
I used to sit and stare and dream my dreams, write my minds thoughts and then revert back to them once in awhile and astonish myself with how intelligent I seemed (once in awhile), then there were times I thought how stupid I was for the thoughts I had written.
The many times I hauled water from the spring, chopped wood for heat and cooking, I never remember complaining of the chore. In fact, I loved it. It filled my time with exercise and to do things, to do with my young daughter. I wanted her to appreciate the finer things that nature had for us to enjoy.
Sitting quietly watching wildlife going through their own rituals of daily survival. The beauty of watching growth, animals and plants. Going to the cliffs right behind the cabin, seeing in the distance the beauty of lights miles away, the wonder of being on the top of the world seeing what we saw. It was awesome.
Then one day in the spring I started the car up, traveled the highway to the town I had left,(for what reason I cannot remember) came back to the cabin, packed up all I cherished and moved back to the city and jumped right back into the mess I had left.
Ho hum.....kind of wish there was another cabin at the top of a mountain in this season of my life, in a close proxmity of family so I could retire, collect my Social security, sit back, watch nature, plant my flowers, my veggies, collect my senses (what is left, anyhow) and just enjoy what is left of my life.
Is that being kind of reclusive? I could enjoy that, really I could. I could end up with the wild hair, LOL, I just wouldn't have the beard.. ;~)

Just a Simple Statement

Hiddy Ho all. Happy New Year.

Not sure what is so "happy". I have been so yucky the past week. Down with a serious bout of bronchitis.

Doesn't feel real good w/having emphysema from smoking for so many years. Thank God He took the desire away from me 5 yrs ago. Don't know where I'd be right now if I hadn't quit.

This is the first time I have gotten bronchitis since I quit smoking, so I am thankful for that. It doesn't make the chest pain go away any easier tho, or make it any easier to breathe in an already hard to breathe situation.

I have been trying to do my job as well, during this.
Been Tough.

Last weekend doing the split shift that has been scheduled for me, I did 3 days of supposed 11 hr shifts...ended up 39 hrs in 3 days. I was wore out. but then after a day off, I do have to admit, I was starting to feel better.

Then wham..smack..what you talking about, feeling better..got 2 days off and spent them in bed sweating out what ever this was except for a mandatory meeting we had that lasted 2 1/2 hrs. Then here we go again, my split shift again. Really, really short staffed . Came to work, can't talk, can't breathe, and there were 2 people doing a 6 person task for the whole show. My heart dropped, knowing I was going to have to be on the floor all day feeling bad, cause it was just one poor stressed out guy and me to get the main job done and one person for the officer's dining room.

I really felt bad for him cause he worries too much over the small stuff and does more than he has to do anyhow in some situations and not enough in others. If he would only learn to just stop thinking on ways to do things and just do what has to be done it goes easier. Let's get on with the routine stuff, stop trying to change stuff.

Poor guy was running around in circles getting nowhere. Told him to remember the old days, we did just fine when we knew that there was nothing else to do but do it.

The day did not go well but it got done..been there done it tooooo many times with just one other person and we did fine. Not sure what was happening that day.

Now we are moving into a New Year..would love to see it as a new year.

Appropriate with a new leader and a new asst. leader.

Teach me something new, learning new stuff as the days go on make me optomistic in some new ventures that may come available. In any case, it can do nothing but to improve my outlook for the new year on the horizon.

I am so hoping that some of the people I mingle with will open their eyes to what lays ahead for them. It could be so nice for all to just do what needs to be done and stop fighting the system. There are so many that have great potential if they would only get over the.."we haven't done it that way" syndrome. You can't move on to a better situation if you won't open your eyes and ears and accept that maybe there is a better solution by following directives that are given instead of shutting down everytime someone says "we need to do it this way".

When you put out a negative, you are not open to receive a positive.

It would be so great to say to someone, this is how so and so would like for us to do this and have it received as, yeah, ok, let's try this and see how it works, instead of a pair of eyes rolling into the back of the head and a negative remark. What kills me are the remarks when you walk away to fellow workers and of all the wrong situations, to the people we are overseeing, which is a direct break of policy, and people think you are stupid enough not hear what is said or that you are not aware of what is going on around you.

I am so working hard on not being rude like some people are to me. They comment on me but they really need to look in the mirror once in awhile.

I try very hard not to let people know how callous, offending, and hurtful they are in their remarks to and about me, but they sure don't hesitate to be vocal about my giving a directive that I am told to give. Not once have I ever dogged anyone. but they sure dog me. I don't gossip about the others. I don't gripe to management about the others. There are a couple of really sweet ladies that I have tried to make management aware of, so things could possibly improve for them. I have been told by management that the staff doesn't like me. Sure they don't, when I keep busting them on stuff they are not supposed to be doing or are letting things be done the wrong way. Usually the one's who don't do what they are supposed to will be the ones to gripe the most, anyhow. But then you got some if they are not talking about someone, they don't know how to act. I sit and listen and watch how others are being talked bad about behind their backs and then watch the same people go up to the people they talked bad about and talk bad about the people they were just talking to. I hear lies being told. I can watch someone do something and turn around and say they didn't do it. This is staff, now. I don't play that game. I have never seen the sense in it.There is a better way folks, I promise.

I do not go out on that floor anymore unless really I have to or I am told to. If I see where people are not paying attention to what the people around them are doing,or they aren't doing what directive was given, my first instinct is to go stop it or correct it so people won't get in a fix for it, if it is staff and if it is who we are supervising, I try to stop a wrong situation from proceeding. I am told that I have to let them go....let them hang themselves..stop saving them, they don't see me saving their butts, they see it as interference in doing things their way. I am made sometimes to just sit or stand there and watch with the new guy, so it can be observed who is doing their job correctly (the company way) and who is not. In the tower, we can see alot more than people realize. I'm learning. It's making sense. Everyone has been told, as he has said he is going to enforce policy so it's time to start following policy and procedures. It's now time to let everybody do what they have been asked, if they don't ..oh well. As they say, people make their own choices in life..either you do what has to be done..or you find something else.

What it comes down to..no matter where you are employed there are rules and regulations..either you follow them so you can enjoy work or you don't. I really don't know anyone here that I work with, that is here for just the flip of it. I think everyone here is here because they need a job. It would so make a difference if they liked what they were doing or wanted a career. If they owned alittle piece of the company does make a difference sometimes. If they wanted the stock options and the 401K stuff available. They could have a great future for their family and themselves if they would just gave a damn.

I am trying desperately to make this new year a nicer one. I realize where I can go w/my job. I love my job. I know how nice life can be with a job like this.

LOL, I do have to say this, I am sorry. I worked prior to this company in a very very competitive atmosphere with sales. Trying to improve sales constantly. Trying to be a better merchandiser than your fellow salesman. My sales were on a constant increase. I can prove it. Never once in that atmosphere did I feel the tension that goes on in my current one. We got along great. In fact, I am still friends with quite a few of my ex-co-workers. But we were all stockholders, that made a difference. We cared about our costs and losses. Let's face it we cared about how the company was perceived also. I was proud to work for who I worked for and wanted them to be proud of me. I feel that way about this company. Hmm..I have always been a loyal to whomever I worked for, and almost always i worked with people in some form of management or ownership. I guess, that is why it is so hard for me to understand the mentality of some who have never had that opportunity. I can't ever honestly remember wanting in my 42 years of working with so many many types, so many different walks of life that I have experienced, have I ever considered leaving the job because of how my co-workers treated me as a person. I have considered it here, only recently. Doesn't mean I am going to do it. I have a leader who recognises the quality of me and is willing to show me a better way to get where I have the ability to go so duuuuhhhhhhhhhh..it only makes sense to improve my siuation rather than go backwards.....yeah? I wish others could see better for themselves.

I have not figured out why there is such a dog eat dog air about it all. I refuse to have someone else burst my bubble when I am doing what I am supposed to do. I will not let someone who doesn't give a damn about their job, interfere with mine.

Besides, I have God on my side. I know, I am where I am supposed to be. He put me here for a reason. I did not apply for this job. But it happened. I physically could not handle the job I had and I asked the Lord to put me in a better situation because I knew He had a better plan for me. It happened. I feel if I can make a difference for someone, anyone, then I am doing what I am supposed to do. The Lord has been there for me on this job too many times already in situations. He is still there with me, now. There has been too many times when I have gotten serious oppostion against me, and I prayed my little prayer for help in the workplace. It usually always includes;

Psa 138:7 When I walk into the thick of trouble, keep me alive in the angry turmoil. With one hand strike my foes, With your other hand save me.

He does save me. Thank you Lord. If anyone was to look back over the last 3 years anyone who purposely tried to hurt me in any way, they have kind of disappeared from my surroundings, be it work or anywhere really. I have witnesses to the fact, also, which is great. So I am very thankful for a stress free life on that accord. The most stress I have is the biting of my tongue and finding the appropriate words so as not to offend as others offend me.

God is Good

anytime I even start to think in a carnal way, feeling like I should belittle myself and show some kind of retribution in the direction of the people who offend me, the HS grabs me everytime and does one of those WWJD things to me and I say "delete delete" to the thoughts of my prior redneck days when I would just lay someout for their remarks and their actions, but my real redneck ways were usually seen in a real heathen enviroment like a bar. Like I said I have never worked in such a dog eat dog atmosphere. I have faith it will get better. It usually does. people come and people go and people stay. Hmmm.

I kind of like this new kid on the block and I will still be praying over the job and everyone there everyday, I will be including the kid too. After all he was trained by the only best sit-in manager we have had since the company took over. I sincerely miss the peaceful arena we had while Big O was here, I miss his words of Godly wisdom, his encouragement, his dry sense of humor, but I know it will all work out in the end to be what it is supposed to be. I miss ya,O

Reflecting

Funny how this time of the year so many people are doing what I am today.

Reflecting.

Looking at what we have allowed life to throw at us, give us, take away from us.
Again I say allow life to do.
It's all in our attitude, so they say.

This is a new year.
So a new attitude needs to apply.

ummmmmmm, yeah!
I'll be the first to agree, I need an attitude adjustment.
I am everyday praying for an adjustment so I can handle what is put in front of me to deal with.

It gets real hard sometimes, reflecting over the past year.

Conceding to ending my marriage.

A stern kick in the butt with possible termination from a company mistake I made in the privacy of my own home, off the clock, in dealing with a friend of 6 yrs who admitted her mistakes to me.
(I wouldn't rat her out, I forced her to turn herself in after consulting w/a pastor)
found out can't get counsel from someone you can trust not to say anything.

Another stern kick in the butt with possible termination from a company mistake I made off the clock giving a piece of advice stating they needed to use their own discretion in the matter. They made the mistake, I got wrote up. Go Figure.

It's hard also because I find myself getting closer to one of my daughters and feeling a want and need to be even closer from both sides but so far away in miles.

I am going to focus on a new foot, new attitude at work so I can make a move with a job to a closer proximity of family.
Got to get busy on the knees for help from above.

I know there is a better plan for me on this earth in this lifetime.

I am thankful over the past year for all the different sites that have so many words of wisdom to share.
I do try to absorb some of this wisdom.
Even though, I don't always leave marks behind, I am visiting so many through others, I can't thank you all enough for the smiles you have put on my face and yes, even the tears, the convictions that I have had on some of my own stupidity thru some other statements.
I don't take offense, I just contemplate...lol..maybe even delete.
I so wish sometimes there was a delete button for incidents in our lives.
Ooops, but we do, don't we, thru the Lord.
I just have to remember, the past is the past.
It's over.

yeah, okay
bring it on
2008

Actually, I am kind of excited about what is ahead from here.

Actually right now, all I want is to feel better,
been real yucky for about a week.

Got to go start a new year off at work,now.
did someone call this a holiday?