love

At church yesterday, the pastor talked about loving people.
He talked about how God loves us.
God is forgiving.

I know He loves me.
I know He has blessed me in different ways that some people could never imagine.
or should I say some people do not want to believe.

Funny how I can sit here and feel blessed when I know I have to give in to my husband's requests of a divorce.
Stupid me, for trying to think he would stop living in the "world" and want to appreciate life in a different normal manner.

lol, but then what is normal in such an abnormal life as mine.

I can sit here and feel blessed because I have a daughter who is pregnant, bringing into the world another grandchild which I pray someday I will be able to meet and hold.

I sit here torn because I am hoping to get a response from another daughter who has refused to let me into her life and wondering if the door will be shut in my face again even though she is in a battle for her life.
I pray that she is reaching up to God for help from Him.
All I can do to help her right now is pray for her healing and pray she will open communication back up so that maybe her wounds in her heart can also be healed.
The Lord said my children would live long abundant lives if I were to believe in Him and walk the Walk of Jesus and I am standing on that and rebuking anything that the enemy has put on or against my family.

I am blessed because of the possible opportunity to relocate with a job, so I can get to know my other daughter, her children and be close enough to visit all family members in the close vicinty, with-in a 4-6 hr drive. (better than now, 10 to 19 hr drive)
Hey, if this reloacation happens, that means I just might also be able to afford to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

So watch out sunny Fla.
I just might end up coming that way for some visits.
I am praying so, anyhow.

Oh Lord, do you think it is possible to actually get a life soon.

Would love to be able to connect with my son, before the relocation.
After all he is only 3 to 4 hours away somewhere south of me.
Another child missing in action.
Just had a birthday last month.
Why should I think turning 38 and being that close in location should make a different in his feelings toward having me in his life.

oh, stupid me, again.,!!!!!

God does.
Thank you Lord for being the loving Abba Father that you are.