Connections

I am thanking the Lord for my recent connections.

My younger sister Sal has been kind of out of touch recently.

Had a message from another sister, Deb, that Sal had a heart problem the other night.
She went to the emergency room for fear of a heart attack.
Things like that are scary when you have prominent heart conditions in the family.

Makes me also think every so often when I have some pains and twitches and heart palpatations.

She is doing ok. Ok enough to go back to the casinos after her release from the emergency room a few hours later.
Thank you Lord.

In having this happen, the door opened again for communication.
I am thankful for that.
I keep asking the Lord to open the possibility for more connections with my family that has been so estranged.
Actually ended up in a 3 way conversation with Sal & Julz.
Connection w/Julz has been getting better.
We can now talk about everyday things, instead of the past.
Thank you, Jesus.

I believe someday that the strangeness of it all will disappear and that there will be more and more normal conversations.
I believe soon that there will be no more condemning others for what has happened in our disfunctional family's actions and lives.
I believe that someday there will be more laughter and tears of joy.

I think some of the family are finally realizing the we can have a connection of love and conversation with out having a constant" in person "connection.
Yes, It would make things better having the ability to see and hug the ones you love more often.
But when the pressure is on the other shoulders to be the one to physically make the trip and it is not successful for whatever reason.
I think the shoe being on the other foot makes it more understandable why I am not flying all over the country to visit or driving for 15 to 20 hours for a visit.

It's not easy.

Finally I am not being condemned for not being able to afford the luxuries of travel.

I eat up all and any communication that is made available through the internet and phone.
That's all I have at the moment.
That's all most of us have at the moment.

Lord, I am not complaining, I am grateful and thankful.

Until that day the Lord makes it possible for me to walk or drive a few miles for a visit.
Until the day the grandkids can come running up the drive or walk to see Gramma.

Until the Lord sees it is time to make our connection more reachable.

Until I can get to know everyone better in a more normal manner, I appreciate any efforts made to keep some form of connection with each other no matter how small or great the efforts.

Thank you Lord