I have been reading all kinds of quips from all kinds of blogs today and one in particular amused me in a sense but then also made me seriously contemplate was being said by all concerned, author and comments included.
Wants and needs.
If someone is seriously spiritfilled, supposedly they have no needs what so ever because the Big Guy has everything under control and will supply those needs so then you of course have no wants.
You want your needs to be taken care of so are they not wants and if your needs are taken care of, you have no wants.

Whewwwwwwwwww,
Am I confused now or what.

I have needs that I guess I confuse with wants.

like this ;~)
I need to have a better relationship with my family because I want my family to go where I am going when the Lord comes for us.

or I can put it this way

I want to have a better relationship with my family because I need my family to go where I am going when the Lord comes for us.

hmmmmmm

I'm sorry, but I do need water everyday, you hear me, everyday.
to drink, to bathe, to wash my dirty clothes.
even if I was in a desperate situation, I know my needs will be taken care of.
so I guess that is why I really don't need anything, except some self discipline to stop spending money on things that I don't need..
Any one who has read my old blog knows, that consistantly, I have been blessed with the things I have needed.
It's been eventually with this addition to the blog world, another note of conviction for me about wants and needs.

I am blessed with the things I need, all I have to do is want and appreciate what I do have.
I am so blessed and I am looking forward to the want and need of family ties to become a reality as a blessing soon.

Have a blessed day

I know it's early...but

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writings of 15 yr old granddaughter

Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about.
I can't" isn't a reason to give up, it's a reason to try harder.
Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do.
But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
You must be strong now.
You must never give up.
And when people make you cry and you are afraid of the dark, don't forget the light is always there.
My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me.
You don't drown by falling in the water; you drown by staying there.
Never give up.
And never, under any circumstances, face the facts.



Beauty is not based on how attractive we are to everybody else, but how attractive we are to ourselves, for one cannot think other people think they are full of beauty unless they know they are beautiful too.
No one realizes the beauty of love, until you're caught in it.If I were blind, within my heart I could still see the beauty that is you.Beauty can be very deceiving to the eye, so love because they bring joy and happiness into your life.
What is beauty if the brain is empty?
The perception of beauty is a moral test.
Beauty lies within a person that is willing to do anything for their love, love is beauty within the heart.
Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?



REACH OUT AND OPEN THE DOOR THAT NO ONE THOUGHT COULD BE OPENED.LIFE IS BEHIND IT!WE DONT HAVE AN ETERNITY TO REALIZE OUR DREAMS.
ONLY THE TIME WE ARE HERE IF YOU RISK NOTHING.
THEN YOU RISK EVERYTHING

Life is what you make it!!

"Always full of the joy of the Lord, and always thankful." Colossians 1:11-12 TLB

Once there was an old and very wise man. Every day he and his granddaughter would sit outside a gas station in his rocking chair, waiting to greet tourists as they passed through his small town. One day a tall man who surely had to be a tourist, began looking around as if he were checking out the area for a place to live. "So what kind of town is this?" he asked. The old man replied, "Well, what kind of town are you from?" The tourist said, "One where everyone is very critical of each other. It's a real negative place to live." The old man said "You know, that's just how this town is."

Later, a family passing through also stopped for gas. The father stepped out and asked the old man, "Is this town a good place to live?" "Well, what about the town you're from? The father said, "In the town I'm from everyone is very close and always willing to lend a helping hand. I really hate to leave it." The old man smiled and said, "You know, that's a lot like this small town."

After the family had left the granddaughter looked up and asked, "Grandpa, how come when the first man came you told him this was a terrible place to live, yet when that family came you told them it was a wonderful place to live?" The old man looked down into his granddaughter's wondering blue eyes and said, "No matter where you go, you take your attitude with you. And that's what makes it terrible or wonderful."

Yes, life is what you make it!

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ya'll have a great turkey day and remember to be thankful for all you have.

Uuuuuggghhh Judgemental??

I was just reading a sweet lady's statement about being judgemental.

Oh boy, did I just have a lesson recently on that.

Of course, I didn't think I was being judgemental. All I was doing what stating facts. I thought I was letting others be the judgemental ones.
Of course there are those who say they are not judgemental and judge themselves.
Ut hum
myself included.
:~Z

I was called on, being judgemental.
I was called a liar. ( I did tell the truth)
I was accused of condemnation. (I will not condemn)

I might not be the pure Christ-like person some people expect of a Christian, but I do not purposely err.
I might not have all the verses memorized, but I know what the Word says to do.
I try my darndest to be who I am supposed to be in walking with Jesus.
I ask for guidance because I know it is all His plan and I don't have a clue where I am going or what I am supposed to do.
I am not a teacher of the Word, but I can read it and get direction.
I can use my screwed up life and the new life I have been graced with, to help people.
If people don't want to recognise God's Hand on me in my life and how much I have been blessed for being faithful,
shame on them.
I have decided that most of other people's judgement of me comes from jealousy and God doesn't like jealous either, does He?

Sorry, I don't get tired of telling people "it's as easy as you want to make it."
Do what you are supposed to do, the rest is history.
If you are going to ask and receive from God you are going to have to keep his commandments. No ifs, ands, or buts about it.

OOoops sorry, got carried away again.

Connections

I am thanking the Lord for my recent connections.

My younger sister Sal has been kind of out of touch recently.

Had a message from another sister, Deb, that Sal had a heart problem the other night.
She went to the emergency room for fear of a heart attack.
Things like that are scary when you have prominent heart conditions in the family.

Makes me also think every so often when I have some pains and twitches and heart palpatations.

She is doing ok. Ok enough to go back to the casinos after her release from the emergency room a few hours later.
Thank you Lord.

In having this happen, the door opened again for communication.
I am thankful for that.
I keep asking the Lord to open the possibility for more connections with my family that has been so estranged.
Actually ended up in a 3 way conversation with Sal & Julz.
Connection w/Julz has been getting better.
We can now talk about everyday things, instead of the past.
Thank you, Jesus.

I believe someday that the strangeness of it all will disappear and that there will be more and more normal conversations.
I believe soon that there will be no more condemning others for what has happened in our disfunctional family's actions and lives.
I believe that someday there will be more laughter and tears of joy.

I think some of the family are finally realizing the we can have a connection of love and conversation with out having a constant" in person "connection.
Yes, It would make things better having the ability to see and hug the ones you love more often.
But when the pressure is on the other shoulders to be the one to physically make the trip and it is not successful for whatever reason.
I think the shoe being on the other foot makes it more understandable why I am not flying all over the country to visit or driving for 15 to 20 hours for a visit.

It's not easy.

Finally I am not being condemned for not being able to afford the luxuries of travel.

I eat up all and any communication that is made available through the internet and phone.
That's all I have at the moment.
That's all most of us have at the moment.

Lord, I am not complaining, I am grateful and thankful.

Until that day the Lord makes it possible for me to walk or drive a few miles for a visit.
Until the day the grandkids can come running up the drive or walk to see Gramma.

Until the Lord sees it is time to make our connection more reachable.

Until I can get to know everyone better in a more normal manner, I appreciate any efforts made to keep some form of connection with each other no matter how small or great the efforts.

Thank you Lord

More

I just saw a commercial on TV about a little girl walking with "Mom n Dad", swinging on a swing, having a wonderful time with what looks like her parents. The whole time someone is talking to the little girl "Sara" about how she wants to have and do things with her. Then the last staement was "I can't do these things, that is why you are with your new Mommy and Daddy. I did not give you up, because I didn't love you. I was trying to give you more, because I do Love you."

Tore my heart out.

Next Grandson's due date

Hooooooooray, hoooooray!!!!
The baby's going to be an NFLer.
So the story goes.....LOL

As long as he doesn't start out at Nebraska.
Sorry Keith, they stink this year.

wooooooooooooohoooooooo Kentucky yeahhhhhhh!!!

back to the baby boy.
He'll take after my side of the family, of course.
I can see him now...blonde hair and green or blue eyes.
yuppers
he could have one of each.
why not
that runs in the family too
his auntie has two different colored eyes
one good looking kid on his way.

He is due the day after my birthday.
lol
wouldn't that be toooo cool if he was born on my birthday?
He's going to be an Aries anyhow which means he will be a strong steady leader.
Look out world
get ready
LOL
ROFLMAO
(we won't say anything about how hardheaded he will be) ;~))

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A new toy

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Oh Well, coffee time

Yeah, it's coffee time.

At Least I hope so.

Got water boiling on the stove.

Yes, I am boiling the water.

It's only me, so why ruin coffee by making a big pot and letting it set and get funky from just sitting on the heat fermenting and thickening.

YUCK!!!!!!

I'd rather have a fresh brewed cup every time, now that I don't drink as much and I don't have anyone to share a pot of coffee with.

*Patiently waiting*

Haven't ground the beans yet.

I will wait until I hear the whistle,

pour a little hot water into my cup to warm my cold cup and

then grind the little brown oily boogers and then awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

fresh brewed coffee.

nothing like it---nothing better

whoops

the whistle is blowing



*doin da coffee dance*



mmmmmmmmmm, soo so good.

that first cup in the am

which reminds me, it is awful early in the morning for being my day off.

started around 5 am

now it's 3 minutes away from 6

not sure why I am up

not sure why I was dreaming what I was dreaming.

only remember a smidgin of it but it had to do with a move

friends helping

recognisable faces in the move ,
no familiar places
and there was that someone who was helping me
that has been there before in my dreams and I always feel safe with, but no face.

He has been there before
As I have said in another blog,

Is this the next man in my life?
or
Is this God telling me that everything is all right and that He is there with me as always
through all that is about to happen.

I know He is there with me all the time anyhow, but you know how sometimes we as humans need that reassurance from someone that everything is going to be all right.
I was feeling like that yesterday for a couple of minutes.
Unsure

I reminded my self that He is there in all I do

Psa 22:24
He has never let you down, never looked the other way when you were being kicked around. He has never wandered off to do his own thing; he has been right there, listening.

I had some staff leave yesterday really really ticked off at me because I interceded in situation with a special diet that was not being produced the correct way.
It has been announced that this particular inmate has won a prior law suit over how he was not being fed the appropriate diet ingredients because of his health issues
( he has a liver disease)
we have to take the extra 20 seconds to insure that this is being done.
I had just been told by my manager to make sure these guys paid attention to the diet specifics. No excuses , no substitutions.
I went over the load sheet with the staff, suggested what they needed, walked away to do another task, come back and they still put items the man was not allowed to eat on his diet tray and was ready to send it out the door.
So in seeing this, I corrected the situation, the staff copped an attitude even though the manager was right in the middle of it all and backing me up, they got really upset with me.
Not him...me
I kept my cool.
When the manager later told me that they had not finished their daily paperwork, all I could tell him was it was because of what had happened over the diet situation, they were pissed and the other reason was because they never do finish it all.
They just walk out when they feel like it, all the time.

enough of that.

I promised I wasn't going to get into work related issues here in this blog,
I am not going there
I am not going there.

What to do today,
my day off.
hmmmmmmm
clean this little studio
do laundry
hmmmmmm
shop
oh yeah, there is a couple of things I want to get to make my tiny studio apartment into a cozy home.
Mainly some baskets to put on shelves to use a drawers to put my clothes in as I don't have a chest of drawers.
I think I am going to be creative today.
I might go get some of those put together thingys and make myself a hutch type thing with cupboards for the kitchen.
ya know...Martha Stewart style LOL
I need some storage space for dishes and pots and pans.
but then
I am thinking of this really neat bakers rack I saw, that had big huge hooks to hang pots and things from and a butcher block type surface and some shelving for open storage.
Really cool

but then

awwwwww shucks, I am just going shopping

the coffee was oh so good but now gone
need some more
it's getting daylight...need to find some stores open

to be contd;


;~))

Stolen Wisdom

had to do it.
had to steal this wisdom.

Had to share this with loved ones.

this is sooooooooooooooooo me.

I honestly see me in this.

Frequently, when faced with a problem, we may attempt to solve it in a particular way.
When that way doesn't work, we may continue trying to solve the problem in that same particular way.

We may get frustrated, try harder, get more frustrated, and then exert more energy and influence into forcing the same solution that we have already tried and that didn't work.

That approach makes us crazy.

It tends to get us stuck and trapped.

We can get caught in this same difficult pattern in relationships, in tasks, in any area of our life.

We initiate something, it doesn't work, doesn't flow, we feel badly, then try the same approach harder, even though it's not working and flowing.(been there)

Sometimes, it's appropriate not to give up and to try harder.

Sometimes, it's more appropriate to let go and stop trying so hard.

If it doesn't work, if it doesn't flow, maybe life is trying to tell us something.

Life is a gentle teacher.
She doesn't always send neon road signs to guide us.
Sometimes, the signs are more subtle.
Something not working may be a sign.

Let go.
(how hard do I have to be hit in the head for this one)

If we have become frustrated by repeated efforts that aren't producing desired results, we may be trying to force ourselves down the wrong path. (have done that)

Sometimes, a different solution is appropriate.

Sometimes, a different path opens up.

Often, the answer will emerge more clearly in the quietness of letting go than it will in the urgency, frustration, and desperation of pushing harder.

I am going to learn to let go(oh, Lord help me)

God is on your Side

how ironic.
I open my mail and this is there.
kind of blends with prior.


Today's Scripture
“If God is for us, who can be against us” (Romans 8:31)?


As a believer in Jesus and a child of His, God is on your side today!
If you haven’t thought about it yet today, remember, you are created for greatness.
You have the seed of Almighty God inside of you.
There is no obstacle that can stop you.
There is no disadvantage that can hold you back.
You’re in the palm of God’s hand, and He has equipped and empowered you for everything. When God is on your side, He sets the right people in your path.
In fact, He’s already released favor into your future.
He’s planning for you to come in to new seasons of increase.
Have you given up on a dream?
God is on your side, and He wants to resurrect it.
Have you given up on a family member? God is on your side, and He wants to restore that relationship.
God is on your side, and He has a plan for victory in every area of your life.
Let that sink down into your heart today.
Begin to expect His favor.
Expect Him to work in your life.
Focus on the fact that God has equipped you.
He has anointed you. Your best days are still out in front of you!
If God is for you, no one can rise against you!
As you meditate on this promise, it will become real to you.
You will walk in the favor and victory God has in store for you!

A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for being on my side today. Thank You for equipping and empowering me to accomplish everything You’ve called me to. Give me a deeper revelation of Your love for me today so that I can live the abundant life You have prepared for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

love

At church yesterday, the pastor talked about loving people.
He talked about how God loves us.
God is forgiving.

I know He loves me.
I know He has blessed me in different ways that some people could never imagine.
or should I say some people do not want to believe.

Funny how I can sit here and feel blessed when I know I have to give in to my husband's requests of a divorce.
Stupid me, for trying to think he would stop living in the "world" and want to appreciate life in a different normal manner.

lol, but then what is normal in such an abnormal life as mine.

I can sit here and feel blessed because I have a daughter who is pregnant, bringing into the world another grandchild which I pray someday I will be able to meet and hold.

I sit here torn because I am hoping to get a response from another daughter who has refused to let me into her life and wondering if the door will be shut in my face again even though she is in a battle for her life.
I pray that she is reaching up to God for help from Him.
All I can do to help her right now is pray for her healing and pray she will open communication back up so that maybe her wounds in her heart can also be healed.
The Lord said my children would live long abundant lives if I were to believe in Him and walk the Walk of Jesus and I am standing on that and rebuking anything that the enemy has put on or against my family.

I am blessed because of the possible opportunity to relocate with a job, so I can get to know my other daughter, her children and be close enough to visit all family members in the close vicinty, with-in a 4-6 hr drive. (better than now, 10 to 19 hr drive)
Hey, if this reloacation happens, that means I just might also be able to afford to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

So watch out sunny Fla.
I just might end up coming that way for some visits.
I am praying so, anyhow.

Oh Lord, do you think it is possible to actually get a life soon.

Would love to be able to connect with my son, before the relocation.
After all he is only 3 to 4 hours away somewhere south of me.
Another child missing in action.
Just had a birthday last month.
Why should I think turning 38 and being that close in location should make a different in his feelings toward having me in his life.

oh, stupid me, again.,!!!!!

God does.
Thank you Lord for being the loving Abba Father that you are.

Starting over

Seems like I am always starting over.
Story of my life.
I promise not to intentionally offend anyone with any of my posts.

I really thought that blogging was kind of like a diary.
Where you could just say what ya want.
Vent.
Apologize.
Be human.

Let's see how this one goes.
I will try to behave.
I promise.